fear of the unknown = no sleep

Lately I keep hearing and seeing in various places, "Do one thing every day that scares you." I used to think that was pretty good advice, but I have to say, at what cost? I'm filled with anxiety over my new volunteering gig that starts tonight at a local spa. Hence I'm awake at 2:20 a.m. following a dream-laden sweaty sleep on the futon with Douglas Fur. I think I was dreaming about being an EMT, and also about being out in the woods jogging with a newborn baby in a carriage and a cell phone in tow. I'm going to be massaging women with breast cancer. Um, great and all, but geez am I a nervous wreck! And I'll be doing this today on top of a full work day and a shitty night's sleep. Luckily it is only for one massage tonight, but my commitment is, I believe 4 hours of massages per month for three months at least. I'm sure after I finish with the first one I'll feel better. Anyway, if you're reading this, please wish me luck, and a better night's sleep tonight.